What in the HOLY HELL just happened? I am not sure what last week was, only that I survived it. Last week, I did not thrive. After some very hard conversations and assessing familial needs the decision to combine houses to honour social distancing as well as fulfill the healthcare gaps in lost services. I found myself building four cabinets and a set of bunk beds in record time all while unloading my home, my business, and our bodies into a condensed space. The demands of being a daughter, a mother, and an entrepreneur were pulling me in a million directions and I fell into overwhelm. I craved carbs, I ate sugar, I drank more wine than normal and I tried to numb from how challenged I was.
Quitting was not an option and so I got through it as best as I could.
As the week wound its way up and down I managed to prepare two garden beds and transplant three bushes. These little steps towards spring and growing more food helps me feel grounded. It’s a duty I feel I can NOT neglect. As I spent more time in Nature, I found myself having some deep inner thoughts and so I sought counsel from trusted intuitives and my card decks.
The messages are loud and clear.
For much of my life I have had a claircognizance gift, and it is so hard to explain and so very easy to doubt. It is as if out of nowhere thoughts of knowing get planted in my mind. I can be talking about something or doing something and suddenly I have a wisdom that comes from some higher version of me and it just melds into my brain as if it was always there. I know it’s not mine because I seldom remember which is good reason to start journaling more or recording myself talking out loud. It feels like now more than ever I MUST access this higher knowledge.
For many years I have had a sense of something huge coming and yet I was cut off from any knowing.
I believe if I had known exactly what was coming I would not have been able to handle the fear and so I kept myself shut off. The issue with that is I GOT USED to SHUTTING DOWN AND SHUTTING OFF. I have heard the message “the time is now” like I am in a Kevin Costner Movie Field of Dreams Que: “if you build it they will come” . For the past 3 months I could NOT work out what the message meant, but hey Frank didn’t know what he was building either (sorry I love that movie). As the stress of last week tore me apart, it somehow broke open space for me to get some clarity. The time now is surrounding me developing a new practice. It is time to use teaching as my practice to channel, and to get myself back into a lifestyle that enables me to go higher and open up. We ARE all capable of learning and creating new pathways, the challenge is our old patterns are easy and familiar. I am HUMAN. As I read through my notes for talks in the monthly membership I realized that yes I am human but Christ Consciousness is accessible to humans.
So last week hit me. I got overworked, run down, burnt out, fell into old patterns, became one with the collective allowing the strain and stress of others to become my own and I came undone. This week I rise, it is time for my own personal resurrection. As with all things, I have to let go of the How, but the druid cards have shown me two powerful allies, and so, the time is now.
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Tawny is a born adventurer who has a childlike curiosity about everything, and brings that into all she does. An empath, medical intuitive, yoga teacher, reiki master, massage practitioner , dabbling herbalist and life coach brings a variety of flavour to all she does. After more than 10 years of international work, Tawny has gained a deep passion for leading people into the physical and spiritual realms of human experience.